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OC Fair






We had a very successful day at the fair. I ate a years worth of fried food including: deep fried pineapple with chocolate sauce, deep fried Oreos, deep fried pecan pie, and a huge Texas Big D donut with cherry pop rocks. Among other BBQ’ed goods. Yum.


I dont know why this never posted!!  Well, um 4 years later?  Here is one night in Tokyo!


Oh my god, what a night!  My third night in Tokyo we took the subway to Roppongi, a really fancy area of Tokyo with lots of shopping, restaurants, and nightclubs.  Fiona says its called Roppongi Hills and reminds her of Beverly Hills.  Mmmmmk!

Every 5 minutes we were offered with $500.00 glasses of wine, bottles of champagne, and shots of fruity vodka.  All free, and all tasty.  What a night!  Absolutely an experience I won’t soon forget.

Me, Andrea, Fiona, and Annya

Andrea and Annya are Fiona’s roommates.  All of them are models in Japan for 3-4 months.

I brought many nicer outfits with me but it is so hot there that all I wanted to wear was tank tops and shorts!  I ended up wearing my Urban Outfitters tank and lime green bandeau.  My necklace is from Pink Latte, a Japanese store, that I bought the day before.  I bought my white chain purse while in Japan that morning.

First we went to a nightclub called Newlex.  If you are a white/European/American model, you get in free, free drinks, and free food all night.  Basically celebrities.  If you are not a model/Asian, you had to pay.  Reminder: we are IN Tokyo…it was like all white people!  So weird.

Uhm hello…beautiful French man.

And little Japanese girls.

We then headed to another club called Feria where Leonardo Dicaprio was supposed to go that night but we have no idea what happened to him.

So we moved on to the third club of the night, Jumanji 55, at about 2am.

This club was free and full of Japanese people.  Much more normal than the other Russian-models-only club.

And also a little crazier.

Fiona and model from Germany.

I was so jet lagged and tired that I was dying in the early morning partying hours.  The girls were only just getting started by Fiona and I caught a cab home around 4am (also paid for by Fiona’s many admirers).  Wow.  Just wow.



Sitting here listening to the rain at 4am here at home in Vegas.  Feeling weird.  The countdown begins.  New people are coming into the show and I cannot believe how much I have changed and my feelings for the show have changed.  6 months ago I was a part of the tizzy and learning new bridesmaid choreography and judging all the new girls.  Now I say hi politely to the new kids but don’t really care to know what happens in the show after I leave.  Of course I care about my good friends and how they’re doing, but don’t really care who is moving to a new spot and WHY?!?!  Crazy because I was loving the drama just 6 months ago.  And a year and a half ago, I cried for a week just leaving my dressing room!  I couldn’t even imagine leaving the show and my friends.  It’s nuts that now I really don’t care.  I think if we were more valued and treated better (not that Jubilee is a negative environment), i might have stayed longer, but it’s sometimes about the ass kissing, and not talent or hard work.  And i’m not about that.  If i like someone Ill show it, but I will not do that just to get a certain part.  Plus, im not 6′ tall and skinny as a rail so there’s no way I was getting promoted anyways.  Jubilee is a great environment, we really are treated well.  But I just can’t spend the best years of my life, year after year, in the basement of Bally’s!  One day maybe I’ll come back for a contract.  But there are so many other things I want to do in the dance world. It is time for me to move on.  Really going to miss being a topless showgirl though.  I do enjoy it so!  But I will be really happy once I don’t have to do top hat, pier, powder, tiller…hmmmm everything not topless I hate!!! 😉

Not to be a debbie downer, but Im just marveling at my change in attitude.  Can’t believe that I only have 22 shows left at Jubilee. That is nothing!!  2 weeks is going to go by so fast, its insane.  The people I’ve met really have been the best part of my experience.  We made each other laugh everyday which got us through the monotony, the creepy camera audience members, the backstage drama, and the long hours spent together in the asbestos filled basement.  I will miss everyone so very much and hope all my dear friends will call me.  🙂  I think I will be back in Vegas soon though.  Something tells me that Vegas might just be some sort of sinfully weird and wonderful home.  🙂  I am so so so happy to have been a Las Vegas Showgirl.  It has been the best experience of my life, but I’m excited to say that I am embarking, literally, on my new journey as a dancer on the Celebrity Century Cruise ship for 6 months.  We are traveling to bahamas, panama canal, hawaii, san fran, mexico, catalina island, etc etc.  It is going to be amazing.  Just going to try and enjoy the last couple weeks of Jubilee.  I will still be in Vegas until November 21, so hoping to hang out with everyone while I’m still here!

Looking forward to spending a little of Fall here, I do love Fall!  October was amazing last year because we did so many mazes, haunted houses, pumpkin patches, Goretorium, downtown, costumes parties, and of course Halloween!  So much fun.  Then off on my new adventure!  woo hoo!!! Good things are a comin.  Hold on to your dreams.  They do come true. 🙂




Jubilee! Only 26 Days Left!

I don’t know if I officially announced it yet….but I will dance my last show as a short nude Showgirl in Donn Arden’s Jubilee!  in Las Vegas on September 26th at 7pm.  I gave my notice a couple of weeks ago and am very excited about my next adventure.  I don’t know what it is yet, but I am enjoying the journey to find out what it will be.

I can’t believe I am leaving this wonderful amazing family and show.  One year ago I couldn’t even bear to leave the girls I sat next to to sit one room away!  Everyone at Jubilee has an amazing, bright soul, and is entertaining in their own unique ways.  Being in such a huge cast is such a thrill, but the fact that we work so closely with one another and see each 6 days a week really brings people together quickly.  I love my short nudie line and everyone else in the show so much.  Even with all the love and support, it is time for me to go.  I want to embark on another amazing adventure and add some awesome shows to my resume.

I do love living in Vegas very much and if I do get another job here I will be super happy.

Jubilee is an unbelievable stepping stone that I had the opportunity to perform in.  Being a part of this 32 year legacy of a gem of a show is truly astonishing and I am grateful for every second.  The ability to dance and perform for an audience of almost 1000 people nightly is such a pleasure.  Even though work is work, and sure, I don’t feel like putting on my rhinestone g-string after eating a bacon cheeseburger, but I still cherish it.  Showgirls are few and far between these days, even in its hay days, and I got to add Showgirl to my repertoire.  Such an honor!

In high school and college I dreamed of being a circus performer with Cirque du Soleil, a ballerina in the San Francisco ballet, and a Showgirl in Las Vegas.  I did it!  I still can’t believe it sometimes.

But now I have other things in this dream list that I must go and tackle.  Onward and upward.

Thank you Jubilee for the best year and a half of crystals, rhinestones, feathers, and high heels.

Thanks for the glitz and the glama’, the tits and the drama.  (you have to say that last line with a New York 1920s gangster accent)

I would like to personally invite each and every one of you to come see me in Jubilee!  It is a topless show so if you’re cool with that, please come!  It is not weird for me!  I have had so many guests, family and friends, who have LOVED the show and enjoyed it very much.  It is classy, sophisticated, cheesy, elegant, gorgeous, entertaining, and you should come!  I only have a few more shows so message me and let me know if you want to come!  I would love if someone was there at my final show! I think I will be an emotional wreck, but I would love to have some friendly faces in the audience cheering me on.  This show is now such a big part of my life and is a significant part of accomplishing my dreams!  I would mean so much to me if you came!

I might be able to get free tickets, so message me!  Otherwise, cheap seats are $17!  Not too shabby, right?!  Front rows and tables are $40.  These prices are with my discount so you have to go through me!  I don’t want anyone saying oh shoot gosh darnit i didn’t know you were leaving, so here is your announcement! (if anyone is still reading this.  lawl)

I love you all! Mwah!

Here are some photos from today!


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Orange County

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I’ve got 6 days of vacation in the OC this week!  Happy to be home and hanging out with my family.  This has been an interesting couple of months.  6 months ago I was home and got the call to go dance on a 6 month cruise to Alaska and Hawaii.  I turned it down to stay in Vegas for the summer.  I worried I was making the wrong decision.  I think I most definitely made the wrong decision.  I know it’s horrible to say, but in a dancer’s life, things can change in an instant and you have to take it.  I had to decide if I wanted to move to Vegas in less than 3 days to work at Jubilee, which I took.  Why didn’t I take the cruise line?!  I stayed in Jubilee for 6 more months and it has been quite a depressing few months.  I’m so grateful for the good friends I’ve made who have put up with my whining.  I appreciate you.  But, if anything, I have learned a few life lessons I want to share in hopes that these words will help a young dancer out there yonder:

1. Yes.  You can make the WRONG decision.  I thought, lets see how this goes, it will be fine!  It was not.  I have not been happy in Vegas these past couple months.  One thing has led to the next and  I did not get news that I wanted this week in regards to a certain job. I am very disappointed.  I feel like I missed out on the opportunity of a lifetime and will never get it again.  Melodramatic?  I don’t know.  Certainly feels real right now.  I have to keep my head high though and just focus on the future.

2.  Things do not come easily to me.  Some people have all the luck, don’t they?  I am not one of those people.  I have to work extra hard to get where I want, and I have to realize that things I want to happen, aren’t going to happen.  I have to have Plan A, B, C, and D.  I mean, I usually do, but this weekend I gave my notice in at Jubilee.  My last day will be September 27.  So come and see me in the show before then!  It is such a scary feeling to have no job scheduled in the future! I know I will be fine, but as I said, things do not just fall in to my lap like I want them to.  It took me at least 10 auditions to get in at Disneyland over a span of a few years, and a year before I got the call at Jubilee.  I had to figure things out in the mean time.  I should have taken that cruise contract.  But hey, everything happens for a reason, right?  Maybe I’m just in the middle of it and can’t see what is currently f*#king happening.

3. Staying skinny is stupid and difficult and I like cake.  I’m feeling quite finished with the skimpy costumes out here in Las Vegas.  I am so not happy with trying to stay skinny, as well as lose weight on top of that!  It’s a hard life, and I am so much the gal who likes to make a big sandwich and eat it in my bed while watching hours of TV at the end of the day.  I dunno man…I love dancing and performing, but these Jubilee costumes, Pussycat Doll costumes, are cray cray.  I am going to try, but I’ve said that for months now, and it is already July 25th.  What is wrong with me?! :/

4.  Looking forward to the future.  Even though it has been a rough couple of months (moving several times, not booking jobs, being put on weight notice) I have high hopes for the future.  I have that feeling when I know something big is about to happen.  I have to have it or else there is no point in doing what I do. I want to keep moving on to bigger, better things.  I want to have a fatty resume and travel the world.  I have a ton of auditions coming up, photo shoot for updated photos, and am looking forward to that big change.  Vegas has been wonderful and I am #soblessed to have lived in SIN CITY.  Truly.  Pools, bars, clubs, parties, 85 gorgeous friends, glitz, glamor, lights, the stage.  It has all been a dream.  But it’s time for something new.

One Year in Vegas!



A year ago today I moved to Las Vegas! My how time flies when you’re having fun!! This is my 3rd contract at Jubilee and I’m struggling to finish. However, with a positive attitude, amazing friends, and lots of coffee, we are gettin thru just fine. I love Las Vegas. We work hard at work and audition for things almost every week. But on our down time we hang out by the pool in paradise. Not too shabby. 🙂 I’m excited to spend the summer in Vegas livin the life, but then it’s on to the next adventure, whatever that may be. Cruise ship?! Fingers crossed. 🙂 I’ve learned a lot from working at Jubilee. If you havnt seen me in the show yet, get your butt out here! Free tics on me! This is your official invitation! C’mon down! What a year it has been. Can’t wait for more fun!